I always wondered what makes people behave badly towards others, well I think its all about ‘FEAR.’ From what ? u may ask. Well if asked to describe it (FEAR) i.e. In the words of the immortal Yoda “ Fear leads to Anger, Anger leads to Hate and Hate leads to Suffering.”
All we have in the end is our insecurities which if not pacified and overcome will consume our very existence. People have many ways to deal with fear ‘ANGER’ being their first line of defense.
A deeply rooted emotion which is brought on by an individuals inability to cope with the truth which he/she subconsciously ignores to avoid that sick giddy feeling that emanates from the pit of ones stomach to his/her temples, after which reason and logic are totally undermined and any interaction with such a person, is a exercise in futility. Only if a person has a stable upbringing and values that promote self-introspection can he/she overcome this thing we call anger. If not then prepare for the fury which is ‘HATE.’
HATE like all four letter words has an immense sting to it which for the anger induced individual has the ultimate weapon to demand satisfaction from whomever is on the wrong side of the headlights. A emotion that like a gyser explodes on all that try to fight this demented person. Such acid and vitriol can be the result of a sad, unhappy insignificant existence and the easiest form of self-gratification. What comes for an individual like this is worse. It isolates this individual from all who genuinely care for it and hence it spends the rest of its life in a environment of suffering.
This thing called ‘SUFFERING’ is so unmerciful that all u can hope for is a quick parley with fate and wish for a quick and painless exit.
Monday, April 2, 2007
Friday, March 23, 2007
Reciprocity
Dear Dolly,
What I write today I say with a heavy heart and no malice toward any person alive or dead. I would like to call it a testimonial to the savage disregard of respect to a man who for no fault of his has endured the childish immaturity of 2 emotionally unstable human beings, one who has always been a tyrant to all around him & the other who has used her tumultuous soap- operatic life experiences to now with vitriolic precision destroy the peace of mind of my family, together they have been the sole source of immense amounts of Machiavellian bullshit which my family has endured for two decades. This goes for the record books.
The first time I was exposed to the shenanigans was when I was in the second grade when she came to my fathers house for shelter against her in-laws and their injustices along with her children due to a reason that her husband could not provide for his family due to a bad period in his professional life. Tragic that u cannot remember the kindnesses that my Grandmother and father bestowed by allowing u the shelter and safety of a safe HAVEN instead she shows her ingratitude to my family and me by bestowing jealous fits of rage which pain us immensely and make us feel as to why do we even entertain her. Her son disrespects us further by telling his uncle he doesn’t like our family so doesn’t invite them for a family get-together at his in-laws farm . Her daughter completely forgets her aunts kindness of being there emotionally& fiscally, when She didn’t have a home or money for subsistence during your pre-primary school years and talks very rudely in defense of a mother who on the day of your registered marriage said that she curses her daughter and her new family that they shall never find true happiness and bliss because you made her unhappy, an ode to her selfishness and total naked disregard for all that is not technically hers.
She feels as if only she has a right to an ego and her sins are misdemeanors and sins against her are crimes against humanity. She feels it fine to defile my family without a acknowledgement to her own acts of jealously motivated statements to people who did nothing but shockingly reported her malicious words to us. We always let it go because we first felt bad for her horrible life, then we felt pity and now we feel numb with anger.
I solemnly swear never to again allow myself to be emotionally lulled into a situation where I let my guard down against her.
I once again reiterate that this letter was not a statement of hate but a honest attempt to convey my feelings about these past goings on.
What I write today I say with a heavy heart and no malice toward any person alive or dead. I would like to call it a testimonial to the savage disregard of respect to a man who for no fault of his has endured the childish immaturity of 2 emotionally unstable human beings, one who has always been a tyrant to all around him & the other who has used her tumultuous soap- operatic life experiences to now with vitriolic precision destroy the peace of mind of my family, together they have been the sole source of immense amounts of Machiavellian bullshit which my family has endured for two decades. This goes for the record books.
The first time I was exposed to the shenanigans was when I was in the second grade when she came to my fathers house for shelter against her in-laws and their injustices along with her children due to a reason that her husband could not provide for his family due to a bad period in his professional life. Tragic that u cannot remember the kindnesses that my Grandmother and father bestowed by allowing u the shelter and safety of a safe HAVEN instead she shows her ingratitude to my family and me by bestowing jealous fits of rage which pain us immensely and make us feel as to why do we even entertain her. Her son disrespects us further by telling his uncle he doesn’t like our family so doesn’t invite them for a family get-together at his in-laws farm . Her daughter completely forgets her aunts kindness of being there emotionally& fiscally, when She didn’t have a home or money for subsistence during your pre-primary school years and talks very rudely in defense of a mother who on the day of your registered marriage said that she curses her daughter and her new family that they shall never find true happiness and bliss because you made her unhappy, an ode to her selfishness and total naked disregard for all that is not technically hers.
She feels as if only she has a right to an ego and her sins are misdemeanors and sins against her are crimes against humanity. She feels it fine to defile my family without a acknowledgement to her own acts of jealously motivated statements to people who did nothing but shockingly reported her malicious words to us. We always let it go because we first felt bad for her horrible life, then we felt pity and now we feel numb with anger.
I solemnly swear never to again allow myself to be emotionally lulled into a situation where I let my guard down against her.
I once again reiterate that this letter was not a statement of hate but a honest attempt to convey my feelings about these past goings on.
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